Pole sana, you must be terrified. Most people who have active sex lives have endured a similar moment of terror. Perhaps you hear that a former lover died of an undetermined illness; or you get a weird rash or you are simply sitting in the VCT waiting for your test to declare that you are HIV-negative. Knowing that the last person you had sex with is HIV-positive does, however, put a different spin on your terror.
But before you start analysing every mole and mosquito bite on your body as a potential symptom, I suggest you visit the VCT and find out what your status is. After that first test, you must go again in 30 days to verify the results of the first test. It is going to be a long month but be patient.
As you wait to ascertain your status, you should avoid sex with your wife entirely for her sake. If you don’t have the courage to tell her the situation, you can fake exhaustion, feign a headache or pick a fight. But please do not put her at any more risk.
The chances of an HIV-positive woman infecting a man during vaginal intercourse are lower than those of an HIV-positive man infecting a woman during the same act. This means that if you are HIV-positive, the chances of you infecting your wife are significantly higher than the chances of your HIV-positive lover infecting you.
I hope that this HIV scare literally scares you into fidelity or at least regular condom use. It is one thing to take risks with your own life but entirely another to play with your wife’s life. We would all hate to see your child become one of the AIDS orphans many grandparents are struggling to feed, house and educate. The sex might have felt good for all of 10 or 20 minutes but it cannot beat watching your child grow-up.
I pray that for your sake and that of your family, you are HIV-negative and that you heed this as a warning. If you are HIV-positive, please tell your wife before you infect her. The easiest way will be to show her your results from the VCT. There is life with HIV and thanks to ARVs it is not the death sentence that it once was. All the best and again pole sana.
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